In 9 days I will leave for FUGE camp. This year, instead of going with my church, I am participating in the Student Leader Apprentice. SLA is a two week program for upcoming or leaving High School seniors that have a passion and heart for camp. During those two weeks, I will work on leadership studies, meet new people, and have the chance to be an apprentice with one of the MFUGE counselors. I don't know any of the other people attending SLA or any of the staff that is there. Everything I am about to dive into is the complete unknown. Me, being the planner I am, wants to know exactly what will happen. I want control of the situation; however, this time, I have none.
My heart is anxious, eager, scared, and immensely happy (weird combo right?). A day doesn't go by when I don't think about what is to come. What will the experience be like? Who will I meet? Who will I room with? Will they think I am a little weird and a little camp crazy (that one I can answer myself.... YES)? I know God had a plan for me when he put me into this position. He is teaching me how to live in peace. How to live without asking a million questions. He is teaching me how to put on my seat belt, close my eyes, and zoom off on this big scary roller coaster, because,for the rest of my life, I will never have all the answers. I will never see the exact play by play of all he has in store for me. I am learning, slowly but surely, that it is probably a good thing. I know whatever those two weeks hold is something so special, sparkling, and popping with excitement. This fear I have now is growing into a beautiful future.... just 9 more days and it will all begin.
Living Love,
Lauren
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